Yesterday...

What a day it was yesterday, it all started with he dogs growling and barking viciously.. I couldn't figure out what could set them off like the way they were going crazy.. It was the neighbor's kids instigating their dog with our dogs and trying to get them into a fight. I can say that it was working . I knocked on the window.. it normally worked when I knocked, they.. the dogs would come running and meet me at the door. but this time it didn't work so I whistled and no, they didn't come either.. I hollered out to them, and no... that didn't work either.... So at the same time I was watching the kids and noticed they had their dog and trying get the girls into a fight.. I yelled at the and told them to get the dog out of there.. and they did, but something was said and they went moseyed back over there and tried again.. The a mother moseyed out of there and started mouthing about "what did I say?" and the one of the boys said "She said to get the dog out of there" at first the boys laughed when she said something about my "bitching", but when I said I am right over there and still watching, she told me to go over there and start up with her.. one thing led to another and I didn't instigate into a fight, mind you, I was still in my pajamas.. so I was still standing there by the window... Yep, that fired me up and I told hubby when the boys came home what had happened.
The lady, I have never sseen her there before, and usually had a good relationship with our neighbors. She certianly resembled Coyote Ugly.. during the argument, her words melted as she spoke.. and soon after her words were just fading to nothing and meaningless.. I told her "Good day".. the part that really pissed me off is that she knew about my condition and my medical history.. I asked her were she got it she said it was from my caseworker.. and come Monday, I thought... someone is getting fired.. (Today we did call and made sure that particular lady is never to take another step in our home.)
Anyway, when the boys came home, I told hubby about it.. and he was in shocked.. I said, don't worry we didn't get in a fight and I didn't say anything that I would normally say and do when someone pissed me off. He was thankful. but in shocked that our neighbor would do that. I said it wasn't the lady that we see everday, it was another lady..
Last night, I dug up their history.. and boy they are just like garbage.. they may have the house or the cars.. but they are pure trash.. the husband went to jail and couldn't go home until he paid the full amount on child support, and they had a child removed from their home. Amazing how people can look top notch and they are nothing.. wow. I have yet to dig around for the wife.. everyone has a history somewhere hidden away from people to see..
This last weekend, we cleaned out the closets and donated the clothes.. o goodness gracious.. I felt like a true loser seeing my my old clothes before I got sick.. they are so small.. and most of them were still new, I hated to give them away but really, I am gaining weight and I don't see any turn around and getting back in shape. I have done something to my heel that's friggin painful and swollen, I was taking Vicoden, but I tossed it..hate the way it makes me feel. So, I just plainly endure the pain and get use to it...
I wonder how things would have been if I never got sick and let things the way they were going.. I probably would have had DWI by now, or got in a an accident.. I think it would have been a mess.. a total mess..
I have weaned off lots of things.. I don't have urges anymore, but sometimes I sure would like a sip of this and that, and I gotta tell ya they look so dang good. Evil is good, but it sure puts you in lotsa misery.
Now I have my little family and working to help Grandson succeed, and hopefully make a good life for him. We have lived our lives now, we focused on helping Rey go in the right direction....
You know, a lot has moved on.. a lot.. people have went their way, went on to new things.. and that is just how life is.. either they stick around and move with you or go on their own..
I just saw the Master's wife, who is a Master too hug Rey.. I am writing my blog at the dojo. I guess, I have a sense of jealousy..crazy huh? I never thought of someone else hugging my baby.. I better get use to it because he is doing great and always pushing himself to do better.. he is not a 'get-by' kinda kid.

Here I am.

I know it's been awhile since I've written anything. I guess I should many things to write about. Ha.. Okay, let's see what we got here..
I don't remember where I've left off, but yep I'm still here.. huh, I'm trying to think what I've done lately.
O here's one thing.. I wanted to go back to school and it didn't go well. I didn't remember what I read one whole day. Yep, that just ruined my whole deal.. I tried again, still it didn't work out for me. Needless to say I sure felt like a failure. I still do.
Ahhhh, here's another. We are in the process of adopting Grandson, yep that's right, we want him to be ours. We have invested so much time in raising him, he's so wonderful, we don't want to let him go.
Grandson's parents came by, I think a couple of weeks before Halloween, and asked for him. Two years of no type of contact, they think they can just zip in and take him away just like that, sorry but NOPE. Love my nephew and everything but he doesn't get nada. Grandson isn't an object that you just come and get, you know what I mean?
Funny, the week before they came, I just happened to call around for a Navajo Lawyer for hecksakes and I actually interviewed the lawyer's hubby.. he is an attorney, but wants $5000.00 up front. I kinda laughed and he says "Tell ya what, call my ex, she is an excellent Navajo Attorney and tell her what you told then tell her I prescribe full Guardianship. I called 'Elsie" and left her a message.
After the parents showed up, she returnrd my phone call. Yep, she's a busy woman always on the road going to court an interviews constantly. Hubby talked to her the first time, and she knew exactly what we were going through.. she's heard that same stories too many times. She made an appointment with us and our case took off. In the mean time, the parents were told NOT to rcontact us only through our lawyer. Right now, she got us Temp Custody without a hearing, and she said we probably don't need HOME STUDY because we already passed one before. The parents got served a few days ago.
A day before Thanksgiving my mom came and told me bunch of stories and when she told the others.. my sis, and nephews she wanted to visit me they didn't want to come near me. I just smiled, the smile that tells you it ain't none of your business. She said it again as if I didn't hear her.. I told her it's their own fault they kept dragging me into courts or have all different kinds of cops or ivestigators telling them I stole or kidnapped Grandson. Calling the FBI, or Government something... pure craze. I told her I got a lawyer and they have to stay away from me, if the want to say something they have to talk thru the attorney. My mom just put her head down. So she says she was going home, and they were going to move to another apartment on Thanksgiving day, and Ramon was going to buy her this and that for herr truck. With all was said, nothing was true, everything is still the same.
We have done all of our Christmas shoping and we can't wait. This year it will be just the three of us, for a long time we have been inviting friends or family. We found it was just so much better with just us ans it was so much less stressful and relaxing. On Thanksgiving Day, we even finished a whole turkey ourselves, thanks to Grandson, he eats like an adult.
My Grandbaby, he is still the best.. he is the top 3% of his school, the best his size in taekwondo, and he is getting ready to be baptized in church, so he is headed in the right direction and we're so proud of him. So far he has, 6 Gold Medals, and Four Silvers... he asked when was the next Tournament.. it's not until March.. It's a long time, but it's okay.

Ha ha ha

Last night I looked at my husband’s hand. I remembered the first time I held it, the first time I kissed his hand, I smiled. I glazed at him adoringly as he watched the television. Those eyes were flirtatious, my smiled widened. I said to him “Sweetheart?” He says “Hmm?” Not taking his eyes off the tv, I said sweetly “What do you see on me that hasn’t changed since we got married?” He quickly glances at me and back to the television, and says “Nothing.” You think he didn’t get roughed up last night?

El Paso Texas Tournament

First of all, one thing I can say for that is "It's all HORSESHIT!"

We were told to be there at 8am. to attend meetings for coaches and etc., no one was there.  The door was open and people were there, but no meetings, no weigh-ins, nada.

The kid Grandson lost to was a red belt and 9 yo, and they don't check documents.  The people who kept scores didn't know how to do it.  I mean they gave a kid 52 points,  they were told once again how to keep scores.  People at the table didn't know how to work the bracket, they would write Grandson's name, cross it out, add him back on, it was a mess.  Between sparring was about a good 20 minute wait.  Grandson finally got to spar at 2:30 and was done almost 5pm.  UGH, I said we were never going there again.

Above it all, Grandpookey was still under the weather. But he wanted to go so we did.  We told him for the future ref.. when he is under the weather he will only do poomse and breaking, but not spar.  That just drained him out.

I'm fine, I'm trying to get myself off all the meds.  It is painful, but wth.  Grandpa is fine too.  Nothing has changed for us.

Woof

Woof
There’s this lady who carries around her puppy in her arms at the Dojo. I figured her husband told her if she wanted it, then she has to care for it. I just use to look at the puppy but Saturday afternoon, I smiled and asked if I could hold her puppy. She let me. I petted the puppy and he took a liking to me too, it licked my face, it’s a small pupply like a hand size, not big at all. I have no idea what breed it is.
My husband starts telling her about our Akitas, and our rhodesian ridgeback crossbred.. We, in our dumb mode, we looked through our iPhones for pictures. I forgot how for one thing, needless to say the lady started to take care of the orders she received for her son and moved on. In a minute or so I found Buddy’s picture. I started to show her, but she was too involved with the other lady. I tried a few times, it got to be utterly ridiculous and hubs elbowed me to stop. I looked at him, and started to laugh.
Hubby and I goofed around about me needing more social skills. I was laughing and mocking the scenerio, by then the lady had gone to the office and doing whatever it is she’s doing. I saw her coming back our way, and I said to Hubs “Okay, let me see your SOCIAL SKILLS”.. he watched her as she was walking by, and I started to giggle to myself. I saw his hand flinch, and the only word that came out of his mouth was “Woof” I look at him, and snort. I start to laugh. With tears in my eyes I said “woof? You call that Social Skills? Woof?” I doubled over laughing so hard I was wheezing trying to keep myself from laughing out loud. He sat straight up, with good posture and tried to act like nothing happened. I poked him and said “I know deep inside you’re laughing your behind off.” He started to laugh, there went our afternoon. Woofing each other. We are a good team of Major Morons. Woof.

This BIG Teddy Bear "Lucy" is a special Teddy Bear to me.  She has been with me for 20 years.  My husband gave her to me, with Diamond Ring, Roses, a ride in the Limo, a dinner and a sweet Welcome Home... That's how Lucy came into our home.

Here I am.

Gracious I’ve become the party pooper of this blog. Let’s see here, what have I been doing aside from ‘resting’ all the time.
Well, for one thing I drove Grandson to Las Cruces so he can compete in the tournament. We were going whether I was on my death bed or not. I had frozen water on the back of my neck and oxygen stuck to my nose all the way down. Inconveniently, there’s very few potty places. Hahaha. Again I was sick with a fever and bronchitis at the time, I was coughing and hacking like a moron, but we made it.
We had fun, so to speak. I try not to get my illness in the way of his growing and succeeding his goals. We went for a walk there, and drove around to see places and get an idea where the tournament was to be happening. The next day, Grandson saw his former Master. The man apologized to Grandson for his behavior, and during the second match he asked if he could coach him for the last time. I utmost, gathered Grandson’s belongings and shoved it on over.
Gosh, coaching Grandson was the most nerve racking event, my hands were shaking. Even my photos came out fuzzy.. You see, you can yell at Grandson to do, or not to do.. He fights how he wants to, and you can see what he doesn’t need to be doing.. But he still does what he wants. The first round it seemed they were going so fast, they fought like tigers in a cage. All I saw them was chasing and running after each other trying to score headshots more. Grandson was tossing the boy on the floor and giving him headshots left and right. Like I said, it was the most nerve racking experience. Grandson won by one point. I could have fainted.
On the second match, there’s this boy we befriended. He is Hispanic, and such a sweetheart. He talked a lot, and said “You know, when you lose “YOU LOSE” there’s nothing to it, you just lose.” Well he lost to Grandson and came in Second. I wondered if he could honestly say to himself what he said to us all the way back to El Paso, TX.
I have to laugh, at his new Dojo, the boy he sparred with is from that dojang. They sparred once more in class, and Grandson wiped him all over the floor. The boy refuses to spar with Grandson since.
We found one of the best dojo for Tae Kwon Do for Grandson in Sandy, Utah. We thought about moving there, just for that purpose. For what we pay here, in Sandy.. We can afford 4-5 bedroom house with some acreage. Lol, what the heck? I would just like to live in a quiet neighborhood. I guess I’ve aged to be wanton something so simple.
I don’t think we have the funds to get my behind back in Tae Kwon Do, I love the sport. Maybe in December we can do it again. I was just thinking right now.. This is the month I started doing Christmas shopping. Well, I guess that’s when we use to have a full house, but now it’s just the three of us, so I think we are okay.
For awhile, maybe a month or so I have not called my mom. I get so tired of hearing negativity, and left it alone. I called her last two Sundays, it was a mistake. From where we left off, it continued. I hung up after I could hear my brother talking to her. He meant well, but mom got after him and zingzang the whole crap started all over again. So, I haven’t talked to her since. I am really not into it.
As far as Grandson’s parents, I haven’t got any news regarding the court preceding. I look on the website and nothing has gone forth. I don’t know, I think they are just going to leave it alone for now. Who knows?
At home, it’s the same. Grandpa has something wrong with his knee so he got something injected and now he has been home for a couple of weeks now. I have no idea what is going on, I think age is kicking his behind too. He is entitled to his disability from the military. He wants to go back to school and do journalism.. The truth. He said he was so sick of everyone lying and hiding behind their positions that there is no truth on the media. Umm, hello.. I want to walk safely to the mailbox? Lol. No, he has been wanting to do that since I’ve known him.

Grandson only

I have gone back to doing Taekwondo, then I got sick <again>.  I have been away for a week now, and have been in the dumps for 3 weeks.  I try and try.  I lost a lot of weight..  I have to admit, that wears me out so I rest most of the time after the class.

I have been busy trying to find ways to make training fun all the time, but Grandson is most happy when we are doing the training together.  With my memory problem, poomse are hard for me.. like now.. I don't remember them.

Nothing much at home, same stuff nothing new.

Got served again..

Yep, that's right.  This time from both parents.  You know, I don't know...  They want the child, but don't want to care for him.

Haven't Been Doing Much.

We haven't been doing much, just the same thing everyday.  I've taken a break from Photography until school starts again, except for the contractual wedding sessions this month.  Grandson is doing wonderful in Taekwondo, and Grandpa is working as a Chef at a Hotel/Casino Hyatt.  Right now, he's been working 12 hrs a day.

I did get new meds for my stomach, but it put me to sleep for days.  I thought I'd get use to it, but I just got so sleepy in minutes.. and it took me almost a week to get it out of my system.  So, my little exercises got diverted and am now trying again.  I don't know if I mentioned it, but I had lost eight pounds in three weeks.. but I'm sure I gained it back.  Sucks, but it's ok I can always work hard to get it off.  I have not went to the park to run, even though it's just a block away.  As far as Taekwondo, I can do a lot of my kicks still but they are SLOW, and I am not talking a bit of sloooow... I mean SLOW.  And my side kicks hurt my hips, although I have been stretching as hard as I can, well I just have to work hard at it.  The Master said I can't spar until he can see that I am ready.... meaning I won't die before it ends. lol.  In a way, I can't wait I start Thursday.  Whoo HOooo!!!

TK, his sis kicked him out last Friday.  It took him four days peddling his bike back to South Dakota.  I told him, at his age I could have it done in half the time.. maybe less.  I say 20 mph.. go six hours of hard peddling.. and bam.. there it is.  His Grandma said he just lived on water for four days.  I didn't have no compassion for their nonsense.  I told her I would have just gone to Denver and started my life there.  I sure wouldn't be running home.  Now, what does he have in Pine Ridge?? Nada.  Makes me mad, but oh well. 

Here I am..

It’s been awhile since I’ve written. Everything at home is smooth sailing once again, and the negativity has left the house. Although I check every court houses around to see if Grandson’s parents have a surprise coming my way. TK even texts everyday, he lost his phone so he goes to hotspots to get online and uses the free text app to get his texting in for the day at McDonalds in Cheyenne.
Hubby has applied to be a chef at a four star restaurant and he starts next week. So proud. I understand it takes a lot of process now an’ days to get a job. Can you believe it?? Background, all references checked, and personal references checked. All this takes about three weeks.
Friday night, OH! HOW SWEEET IT WAS!!! To dream of Tawnchi, I didn’t want to wake up. I had my hand on his chest as I watched him sleep. He played and played while I watched him, sometimes I held him, then towards the end he laid down to take a nap. I put my hand on his chest and felt him breathing and his heart beating. It was so fulfilling.. He was still the little mischief and played. Tawnchi was about five, still looked the same, except he was a bit taller and ran around and played. He was wearing jeans (looked like stonewashed), and darkblue/white striped shirt. I can’t remember if he talked to me. He’s so sweet. I was so afraid I’ve lost him. For days on end I was depressed that I have not dreamed of him lately. Right away, I thanked Heavenly Father for letting me dream of him.
Sometimes I have the urge to draw something, or even doodle.. But really, I have been so tired lately I am just not in the mood.. It’s just an urge.
I went swimming the other day. All together I probably only did about 20 feet of swimming. I was exhausted. It’s my first time since I got sick. Also, since I am joining the Taekwondo again I have been doing a lot of drills and I am telling you… IT HURTS, and if I stop a day, I am so sore it’s crazy. Spinning kicks I can’t do yet, but in slow motion I can. Come July I will be right in there with the rest of the folks. In a way, I can’t wait.. On the other hand, I just wonder if I can last a whole class without giving up… We’ll see what happens. O’Hubs is against me going.. But just watching them sparring and stuff, I really want to go back. The Master says I can keep my belt, but I got to know everything at that level. Which is a problem! I have been doing my first Poomse, and I still can’t get it right.. I forget, I do it and the next day I forget again. It’s frustrating. Sometimes, I think maybe I should just forget about it. Hubs asked me, whenever I use my camera do I forget it, too? I said yep, and I have to talk to myself to get it right, either I forget the settings. Well, if I were to spar I don’t have that time to make some points, I gotta be fast and know at all times what I’m doing and what my next move will be.

He makes me proud.

Grandson, although my world may be falling apart he still makes me proud and remember the love I still have in me to give.

We are okay, somethings that troubled us is out of the way.  I have not heard anything from the parents, and I check and call everyday to see if they have filed anything.  It's a real nonsense way of living.  We done exhausted all of our savings, it went fast, so I don't have any funds for hiring an attorney for Grandson.  I just keep doing what I can for him.

At home, all is fine.

Yesterday was Tawnchi's Birthday.

He would have been 24 years.  Unfortunately with my memory problems, I think dreams of him have vanished.  I am sad about that, and most disturbing is I know how I lost him but the feelings are not there anymore.  Even the anger towards the estranged deceased spouse.  All is gone, but my love for Tawnchi is still there.

There is a boy at the Dojang, a little bit more chunkier than Tawnchi, but he looks just like him.  I smile everytime I see him.  He makes me happy inside.

TK in Cheyenne

I learned today TK was in Cheyenne, Wy., with his sister.  We knew he was going to go up there one day eventually.  His sister has been asking him to go live with him, so he went. 

TK went Missing.

Troy, of all things that are going wrong this week.  I guess in TK's eyes we haven't had enough.  Wednesday night he said he had to leave by 9pm.  I asked him if he was going to have dinner and he said no.  It was hubby's birthday dinner. 

After everyone was settling down for the eve, I went into the garage and I saw TK folding his gi and putting it in the bag.  Later hubs said he was leaving because he threw away a lot of his clothes.  I smiled at TK and asked him if he was leaving and he said no.  He was just cleaning out his clothes and those have gotten small.  I thought nothing of it.

I was still awake at 1:30am, and I texted him.  He said he would be back in the morning to take care of his ID problem. I said ok.  Next day, I tried and tried to text him but he wouldn't text back.  Tonight, after being so worried we filed a missing person report.  About half hour later the police said he was out partying.  About ten minutes later TK texted and said he was ok and don't worry about him.

We called the people who we thought might know his whereabouts and told them he was ok.

So UPSET!!

Although it been a couple of days ago, I think.  I went to court with Danielle.  Grandson's mom, she put a restraining order using my son's death as a reason to remove my Grandson from me.  OH!  Disgusting things they wrote...  I just looked passed their complaint and told my husband I am ready to go.  Don't worry about it, I got it covered.

I cried and held on to Grandson through the night.  I wasn't sure if I would be able to perform well under stress.  But I did, the case got dismissed.  I do, I do check the website every night now to see if they have filed a new complaint against me.  The only one hurting here the most is Grandson.

My emotions has been all crazy lately, knowing one day I might have to give him back.  I have about 20% chance of keeping him every time they pull a sneaky one on me.  I know Danielle didn't write that, I know she had Ramona do it, because the writing sure doesn't sound like her, and I don't think she will ever say things like that.  She is submissive, I think she got put up to this.

As if, I have nothing to worry about.  TK went out last night and I have not heard from him since 2am.  Usually when I text him he would text within half hours time.  Now, I don't know where he is, but he is 18 and I see he took some of his personal belongings.  I think he went to stay over night at someone's like a girlfriend, or friends.  I just don't understand why he never texted me back twice today.  I just hope he is okay.  But he did see his cousin that day at the court, and when we were leaving I saw TK walking back from a different direction.  So, he could be with his cousin too.  Hard to say, he plays on both sides and a good story teller...  I have to say, he is 18 and it's his business what his doing not mine.  But it would be nice if he just said I'll see you in a few days or so.  Instead of telling us he will be back in a couple of hours.

I have a photo session tomorrow and another this weekend.  It's okay, but it's nice to do work when you want to.

Happening?

Gotta love my kidney stones..lol

The boys have been real sweet with me during the Mother's Day time, and Rey's Birthday..  We saw movies and did things.  It's hard to get back into the routine once you get spoiled some.

Grandpa is moving around more, and doesn't look tired all of the time.  He ha a couple more surgeries to go plus his  hernia and knee.

I photographed a lady from Brazil and she brought me a gift from there.  We have been emailing and she wanted me to take photographs of her.  She teaches YOGA in Brazil.  So it was great to meet her and able to chat with her.

I took a few tumbles on my own.. thank you Vertigo, love you much.. I fractured my rib, but it's not so bad.  Hurts, but what doesn't? ha

Ah, let's see what have I done lately?  IN photography, my work can be seen in ABQ.  I took the local top hiphop station their photo, so that's up.  I did that band, and they say they were honored to be photographed by me...  Ahhh.. I don't remember what else.. but I know there's more.  lol, not that much.  But I'm getting there..

Hubby's Heart Surgery

IT'S DONE!!  Finally!  He had it done at the VA Hospital here in Albuquerque, NM.  I paced and paced, and tossed and turn all night.  Well, actually I spent the night on the couch, I couldn't sleep and too anxious to sleep.. too worried.

The procedure was simple and fast, they just did the robotic thing.. I dunno what it was called I didn't pay attention.  I really hit MENOPAUSEY!!!  So many things on my mind, he's a big boy, and he can handle.. so my ears and mind was shut that day.  Anyway, they cut a little incision on his wrist, stuck a thingy in there and cleaned out his arteries and put a thing like a mesh.. a couple of times, then it was done..  2hrs, max only because he couldn't calm down..  Some stupid doctor in Farmington told him, sometimes mistakes happened and Uh oh.. games over bud. 

Some things are coming off the THINGS TO DO list.  One more thing to worry about, which I hear I shouldn't be.  It's damn embarassing, but what the heck.  I told him plain and simple, you created the problem you figure it out.  A lot has been on my mind, and I mean a whole lot.

The farm, I paid my cousin to take care of it, and told mom I will send her money now and then to check on it.  Grateful I am.  She asked me when am I coming to see the farm, I told her when I can.  When I can.

Right now, things are a bit hard, just a bit hard.  It's okay, it'll pick up once again.

Nothing much

In the evenings, we go to the park and play basketball and such to keep the boys active. Easter came and went.  Yesterday, we all screwed around and did nothing, ate Easter stuff and watched movies.. played.. we didn't go to church.  However, during dinner Grandpa told the reason for Easter.

Saturday the boys went to the park up by the pit while I did Wedding Photography.  Although you get invited to their meal/drinks, I am never comfortable.  I don't know why but I always get butterflies during weddings.  Their family and friends were like the best of the bested!  Even the children, oh so wonderful.  The couple, I did their engagement photos..and they would like for me to do their baby photos..some time. lol

At home, Grandson and I have a schedule, which I need to do on my end.. I overslept this morning. Grandson did his morning stuff, I haven't.

Since I hurt myself weeks ago, I think I am better now.  For the last few days, I have gone back to stretching and light exercises.. mostly walking.  UGH!  I still stomp like a retard, I try to NOT think about it and walk naturally.  But I can feel it in my heels, it hurts.  Anywayyy...

I still need to go into the garage (our gym) and do my situp (well crunches), squats, pushups, a few round houses on the bags.. and a bit of total gym.

Right now, while I'm typing this Grandson is doing Math.  We already did Reading.  Later, we'll be doing Science and Social Studies..

Last night, Grandpa and I played cards for the first time since I don't know when..  I couldn't remember how to play.. My sweetheart said no problem, I will always teach you what you forget.

I am also getting my panic problem back.. last night I took a pill to calm me down.. oh how I hate it.  But it's okay, it reminds me I am still functioning.  haha

Well, I still can't travel alone, and that's a big MINUS!!

Grandson's Second Tournament.

If only I could had over whatever strength to him, and I can take any pain from him I would, but obviously he is doing just fine.

We arrived at 8:00 like we were told, and his division started until around 2pm.  Boy, I am telling you it was the longest waiting thing to wait for. AND no snacking, drinking, nada...

Grandson did great the first round, it was no competition for him.. the points racked up quick and it was over. 18-13. He would slow down and let the boy kick him somemore than he would go back in and gain his points. The second round he was winning, except the boy started crying and they gave him a minute to recuperate. I think Grandson was more guilty than anything, they had him sit facing away from the boy.  When it started again, the boy gave him headshots left and right.. Grandbaby didn't sidestep, use any defense.. so he lost at 15-11.  So close, I wondered if he thought he had another full round, either he just felt bad.  I don't know. But after all the shock, he said "Darn, I wanted to win."

Since he came in second he qualified for Nationals in Texas. I don't know if we will be able to attend. The boy that I talk about, he came in second too.

Troy, as much as we love him.  Mercy, I wonder if it's just part of growing, or what?  I don't know, just a lot of irresponsibly problems.  He was told to save his own money and pay for his own way... but no.  He didn't get to go to his Tournament, a lot of people were disappointed. I know how it is when you become part of the group and you want only the best..

He got texted on why he isn't there.. Friday night he kept trying to hint me to pay his way, I wanted to but, the last time he gave us attitude and ran off with other people.. so no I didn't pay for him. Once played the fool, that's all I need.

I've been chatting on video with my neice.. we shared stories and pictures.. it was nice.. she wants to do it again today.

IN a couple of more weeks it will be time to work on the farm again.  I think I will just pay my brother to do the work for me.

What the HEK!

I had the cops at my house this afternoon.. We heard the doorbell ring and we thought it was TK coming home, or maybe Grandpa.. Since I was sitting on the bed talking to my caretaker, she got to the door first. Grandson was standing by the couch. My caretaker said "Corrr nel leeaah, it'ssss tha police." and she looked scared. I thought she was kidding and said with a grin, the police? She said "Yesss, it'sss tha police." and looked at me worried. I went to the door and told Grandson to go to his room and play.

I opened the door and Detective Monica asked if I was "Cornelias" I said "Yes, I'm Cornelia." She asked if they could come in and I said "Sure." When they came in they asked who was all at the house. I said "My Grandson, and my caretaker." My caretaker popped out of the kitchen and stood there all frozen. They asked me if I would like to talk to them in private or have her present. I told her private. My caretaker was more thankful to leave the house so I can tend to my business.

I saw my socks on the floor and excused myself, they said "No Problem." I picked up my socks and put them in the laundry basket. I asked if they wanted to sit at the table or in the living room, they walk in further and said "We got a call from a lady saying you have kidnapped a child six years ago." I shook my head and sighed at them. I knew then it was my sister and Shane.

I told them the whole story about them... the whole story.. I showed them my papers from the court, and she said I need to refile with the court.

I agree.

When they were done, I asked if they could send my caretaker back in, and they laughed and said she was sitting in her vehicle. When she came back in, I told her Grandson's parents are back at it again. And she shook her head.

It's weird because all day, I felt so horrible. I felt so sad and depressed to a point I felt like crying. I just kept to myself, and it was just letting me know these guys were up to no good again.

I have to admit I was so upset I felt like walking and I told Grandson we'll just walk to the dojo today and we did. Along the way, our friend picked us up.. she was having a bad day too. She lost her purse at McD's and someone took her credit cards and maxed them out all the way to California and Nevada.. I felt bad for her.. so we exchanged war stories about being treated unfairly by people having nothing to do but cause grief for others.

My sweetheart was upset and called the Detective and had his say about what they were doing. Det. Monica said they were not making any sense to what they were saying. Why after five years would you finally start filing missing report?

I called my mom and told her what they were doing here, she was flabbergasted and disgusted with what they were doing. She said that sister of yours just loves to cause problems for everyone. She's just no happy unless she is giving someone a hard time. I told her I saw their facebook account and read about things they wrote about her..she said she wants it. SO, yep I'm going to send it to her. Also, the phones Shane was suppose to send back, he still has them. They're on his facebook. Stupid.

Ole Moley

Today I got a call from a Music agency asking if I would like to work for them. Sounds exciting but there's a lot to weigh in this. I don't know what to do.

I am nervous, seems like another step in this liquidy life I've been living in. Sheltered slowly letting me go again. I've developed many phobias, and have become hypochondriac... What a mess..

We'll see before I start getting upset over this matter.

What it is..

Ok, let's see. What are my top things I have done?? Really nothing. My teeth are getting worked on and until everything is looking like it should, I get my implants. Yay! I feel like an OLD person with DENTURES.. it's only two or three teeth I'm missing from the incident. After that whole mess, now I see an attorney advertising if someone got a boo-boo from a hospital, contact him. Hmph!

I've done some more Photography, I really want to get my own studio. But I also need to get enough clients to carry my monthly bills.. and my new MUSTANG. Ha ha..

I worked with this youngman, I only held him for less than a minute in my arms... and I fell in love.  A story about this guy, only if I knew at the time I would have taken extra care with the situation and made it more personal for the individuals... I feel bad, but I think I will be able to do that on the next run.

As we know, I can't drive and be anywhere by myself. So my home teacher, who is like a major sweetheart, she drove me and Grandson to my Oncologist. We talked about Doctrine and Covenant. By the way, I love reading D&C, lot of good stuff.  It's a learning we need to heed to.. a lot of thinking on that.  A lot.

Everyone is up and moving around now.. I can't concentrate..

End of Spring Break

Seems like we didn't really do anything out of the ordinary.  Grandson and I hang out together like any other days.  Sometimes he goes with Grandpa with his work.  I like the idea of them spending time together.

I wanted to go swimming and go to the zoo, stuff like that, with Grandpuppy..  I just wanted to be selfish and spend time with him alone.  Oh, there's plenty of time for all those, really.

I went to interesting photo shoot (live via Comcast) fashion show..and local Night Club for Heavy Metal bands.  Whoa!  My head was still spinning in the morning.. my ears came back by afternoon the next day.  As a photographer, things are different perspective behind the lense.  And I checked out people.. I thought ~wow~  My pants were blowing from the amps.. At first, I panicked because it was so loud.. and the vocal dude.. he makes his eye all white.. he looks like he is in pain.. they all looked like they were worshipping the devil the best they can..  then I remembered they are just artists trying to make a living..  reality set back in.. and there it went.   At the end of all this, they loved my photos and asked me to come back for free, and get up on stage to take shots.  Sounds like fun, but Hubby isn't liking it.. and not only that they call me CORN BABY!  lol, sounds ridiculous..

This young lady here was a Super Model at one time.  She travelled to other countries, have been on Star Search, and other model TV shows.  I don't remember her name.  I just don't listen very well, let alone I forget them.

BlindDryVE

Freaky Guy

Mom has been telling me how hard things are for her and there's no one to help her.  When my brother is available he is able to help her and do what needs to be done.  I told her, I wish I could be there to help.  We live just too far to be travelling to and from her home.  My nephew was suppose to be there for her, but he is not lifting a finger and ignoring her.  So much I would like to say, but I just keep my mouth shut.

Hubby, same thing everyday... work, tv, angry birds, eat, and sleep.  You know, he does chores too, and take care of us spoiled ones. 

I think I am going to lay down.. and get back to editing.  I have a project I do online.. it pays ok..  I outsource media projects.. real simple.  BUT it's pocket change for me, and I have booked a few weddings, family portraits, a couple of newborns, and another engagements.  I did a Senior shoot yesterday.  I've been a bit busy.

I still got it...

I can land flat on my face without notice!!  How about that?

So, I went to a photosession..  Great family to work with.. Awesome as can be.. This is the kind of people you want to work with..  Can't get any better..

SPLAT...  Thank goodness they weren't watching..  I hurry and jumped up..

My forehead was pounding.. I pretend to get my bottle out of my camera bag..  I stood there trying to keep myself laughing like a retard.  OMGoodness.. that was so hilarious..  I looked around.. no one was watching.. ~whew!

Oh, and....

I was taking a shot from ground up.. and I just have to say {another} stupid thing.

"Sometimes we have to lay down to get what we want."

The husband laughed, but the wife just kind of.. you know.. look the other way.  I excused myself..    Real good..

Luckily.. they asked me to do their Wedding for them.  At the end of the day, they LOVED my work. 

Awesome!

Me and Buddy...

Me and Buddy were busy bodies this morning.  And I'm glad I looked at the clock, in half and hour I need to pick up Grandson. ~whew! 

We ate at McDonald's, took Grandson to school, had a meeting with his teacher.  See, yesterday he got his basketball tooken away.  On top of that, he took a flashlight that don't belong to him.  So, I made him give it back after getting a talking to about taking things that don't belong to him.  At school his teacher said he is very dominating, even towards her.  OMG!! Is all I can say.  He keeps it up, he will be in a one student class room and I will be the teacher.   After that, we cashed my check and did errands.. then my favorite part.. I went shopping for newborn props.. aii I was way below my budget.  I bought things that cost $79.00 online for $13.00.  Yeah, it felt like I hit the jackpot.  I also picked up a few new mommies for newborn photography.  I should be ashamed of myself.. but business is business.

Here's some pictures from Sunday.  We were all home, I was in the "office" and Grandson came in to talk... TK came home and started playing with something on the floor... Grandpa wanted to know what we were all doing in the "Office".. so I just took individual shots of all of them.. Then I went to the back door and took pictures of the dogs playing.

Here's another one..

of nothing..

We have been travelling again, mostly to Colorado. Hubs took the job on and is loving it. Yesterday was his first big check, so while everyone is at school and at work.. he decided to take me out. Just me.. Grandson gets treated out Friday, he's getting his suit he has been asking for.

I have to laugh.. this morning when he was coming out of the bathroom, I saw his hair dripping with water.. I knew he has been styling and styling all morning with his hair that wet. Boy, what is to become of that young lad?

My mom said "My little Nali.. he is going to be a snob and will not want to come visit me." I said "No, your little Nali is full of love. He is going to be hugging and kissing you. He will sit down and listen to you." I told her, he just wants to dress nice now.. not Walmart style like me.

Tomorrow a lady is taking me to breakfast in exchange I teach her how to use her camera. I told her she didn't need to do that, but she insisted. She was telling me her life story about her situation. She is a good lady, but something I probably need to watch. This is just something I hear.. Her parents pay for everything.. her kids school, her vehicle, her childrens' activities.. It's like a brush fire huh? I wonder what people say about me? I don't care.. they can have a drink on me.

I can't believe I haven't drank in about two years now.. I can't believe I got wild sometime ago.. and when I was out there alone, I was careless. It's mindblowin'. Some of those memories come back.. and I just think ~wow~ how did I do that? I'm so thankful, I got back on the right track.

TK photos

Last Wednesday the boys got tested for their belts.  TK to Green, Gson to Orange.  They are learning fast and sparring just as hard.  TK was given an expensive gi as a reward from one of the Masters.  He excels faster than everyone at the dojo, he is hoping to spar with the black belts.  He needs to be quarter of a second faster than now to keep up with them and learn the counter moves.  My baby Gson, he sometimes has his moments and don't want to spar.  It's okay.

It's like, bites my arse...

Oh hubs got a full time job doing what he likes -investigating-... I will be home by myself in the morning, then my caretaker comes in the afternoon. Dang, it's like cutting off the strings again. I feel like a big baby here, I get all the attention and everything is tended to my needs and wants. Now, I'll be by myself and time to grow up and hold the fort down. WOW.
Hubs, I'm sure it's like FREEDOM! I don't care what he says about missing me and will be worried about me. I know he will be hee-hawing around with his new truck going everywhere once again. Me, limited driving.. to and from Grandson's school, and to the dog park. Maybe later I will be able to travel here and there within the city limits. Yes, I'm a big baby. Just to make me feel a bit better.. hubs bribed me. Ha ha ha, I'm such a sell-out. Where is my dignity and values??? I just have to laugh. That was horrible.
My boys tested for their belts today, I will post the photos tomorrow or so. Today.. it's late and we just got home. We treated Grandson out for passing, but his sparring was horrible he got tossed three times and he got kicked in the head two times. He didn't do much kicking it was more like picking himself off the floor. It was bad, he got ripped. I know he was very upset about it. He said he just felt like throwing up and didn't feel any aggression. He just froze. We said he can always do better, because we know he can do better.
Now, TK... he kicked his sparring partner around like he was a volley ball. And after the test, everyone was suppose to go in for big sparring event but we left with Grandson. TK said he sparred with the kid that kicked Grandson right in the forehead, because he missed the bag (he is about 15 and a blue belt), well it's also one of the Master's son. In turn, after kicking his behind for kicking Grandson. The Master used TK for an example and kicked him around. I said maybe I should pull a Ninja and pay him a visit tonight. HMPH! Yahhhh, I be laid out in the street somewhere... Ninja suit torn to shreds.. Grandson thanked him, for standing up for him. In the mean time.. Grandson is sporting a green/blue eye..

What would have been

On a little drive I asked hubby where would we have been should we have been selfish or normal couple in Las Vegas. Does he miss 'our' lifestyle? He thought about it for quite sometime, and responded; I would have retired as a chef maybe would have ventured to other curriculars. We would have a paid off our home, drive newer SUVs. You would have been an executive. Yes, we've made a destructive detour in our lives. Yes, I miss our lives. I was disappointed, and said "Atleast we've made a difference in several lives of children.".

Now I'm sitting here waiting for him to get my handicap card.. listening to an old song JUMP AROUND.. I can smell Vegas... I can hear Vegas... I asked hubs if he wants to move back.. he said "There's nothing there. The economy is bad. No, I wouldn't move back."

Well hey,

How long did it take me to realize we are past 2010.  Like now, all my new blogs are suppose to start on January.  So it was suppose to be, because I said so.

I also realized I walk like a retard.  HAH!  Now, I am trying to correct it when I find myself stomping my feet down while I walk.  I tried to walk normal but I am very off balanced.  I was wondering why my knees hurt alot.  Well, after seven hours of being a passenger on a long trip.. I had a lot of thinking to do.  So, I will be working on that.

I continue to get BIGGER by the day.. I am well into BIG BIG BIG clothes.  Will I ever get back to normal?  No, is my answer.  I am just living my life.  All the new church clothes I bought this summer are small.  Oops!  That's okay, I just gotta buy bigger clothes and we're ready to roll.

The other day, I saw this beautiful horse and the lady said they were going to host a special valentines event.  And I was more than welcomed to join them on a trail ride into the sunset with hot drinks and such.  Doesn't that sounds wonderful?  I thought about it and reality hit me, I remember I can't ride anymore.  I fall off, and that was the truth.. it sucks.

Yesterday, I had to walk through a thingy where only one person can go through at a time.  I had to try a few times... my mind doesn't function that well.  BUT I made it. So happy Hubby is patient with me, and is always willing to wait for me.  Also, we went to places where we use to go, I didn't remember them.  I remembered working at such a place but I could not remember doing what.  I don't remember the town very well, I even forgot it existed.  Hubs asked me if I wanted to go see mom, I normally would but not yesterday.

I didn't take my camera with me, hubs said we didn't have time to be taking pictures.  We were on a quick run to and from, so I just sat there for seven hours.  We talked about things, and as a good observation, I told hubs... my memories are like a merry-go-round, they appear and disappear.. some good memories, some bad memories, sometimes I laugh, sometimes I think about them.. but they vanish just as quick as they come.

I try reading, but they don't stay in my mind.  I read and read, but I forget where and what I read.  It is very inconvenient, I get frustrated.  Again, I stare at the words and try to make it stay.  Oh well, maybe one day it will stick and I can do it again.

I am very bless to have a supportive family.  Sometimes they laugh with me, or they look at me and wonder if I am goofing or being goofy.  Sometimes they just look at me and wonder... to me it can be comical.  I don't know, maybe I should lock the doors and stay inside. ha ha ha... I don't know.

SO!  Let's see what this year will bring.  It's a good start..