Today is my husband's birthday, I wish I could give him more.  He deserves more at this time of his life.  Happy Birthday Sweetie.

I dreamed of Tawnchi.. my baby how i miss you so much.  Love you all the time.

I wrote to mom,

Dear mom,

I dreamed of Tawnchi last night,

I had went to the home in Roy to visit with Tawnchi. I went up the stairs and it was beautiful inside, it had high ceiling with curtains that came all the way down, While I was waiting for you to come back in, I looked up and noticed these pants, what you would later call them “Character Pants”, I was looking for Tawnchi’s. You came up behind me and said “He’s wearing his already.” I told you there were very interesting. You walked back to your stack of materials by your sewing machine. “I’m running out to do errands, I will be back later. He is at the babysitters if you want to visit with him.”
The babysitter’s house was about four blocks away, but they didn’t have blocks it was a country environment, with beautiful landscapes, and houses, no sidewalks. It was like she was expecting me she had him in the carrier already. She told me he was asleep and he was running a slight fever. She gave me two bottles of liquid medicine that looked like tea. Tawnchi was about 1 ½ to 2 years old, his hair was the same, light brown and a bit curly. I looked at his pants, it had patches of Teddy Bears, Boy Teddy Bears, and on his back pant belt loop was a dark blue sock tied to it. There were other designs on it. He had suspenders like around his light blue T-shirt. The lady asked me if I was going back to the house, I said that I was.
I loaded Tawnchi into my car, and I turned to look at him, he was talking to me. I can’t remember what he was saying but he was talking as I drove back to the house. I carried him inside the house with the car seat. My father was fixing something inside, like a carpenter. All the windows were open and the curtains flew about as it was getting windy. I hurried and closed the windows and sat down next to Tawnchi, I heard my dad tell me he was better off being with you guys. In my heart, I knew he was right.

WE have had a social service lady come and interview us for the adoption case, she seems like a nice young lady from Crownpoint, NM.

Nothing has happened lately, except that Grandson won the Grand Champion Award in Denver Colorado.

Troy was stabbed and flown to the hospital in Rapid City, SD., they were able to get him going again, and upon his release the Feds got him and now he is in jail.  I don't know how long, his family asked if he could be released to us and we said no.  Why? Because he will be a felon, and that just don't sit well when we're trying to adopt Rey.  Troy has decided to live a 'gangster' life, and that activity is not going to be allowed in our home.

Holidays

I wrote this a couple days after New Years..

So, Christmas and New Years have come and gone. From the last time since I've written, I don't remember exactly when but Grandson's parents were served with court documents and to this day they have not responded to the court procedure. I don't know if they will be responding or do we win by default? Hard to say but they have until next Friday to respond.
His mother has accepted service for both of them. She, on the other hand no longer lives with the father and they hae split up. Somewhere, as I think she has always had this extra spare tire in the trunk this whole time, she just needed a good excuse to leave.. but I can understand on her end, but still when you decide to have a family you think you would have really considere about the person before a having children with them and making a family. That doesn't matter to me anymore, they are adults and they should have thought of that before so.. wouldn't you think so?
Anywho. We have celebrated our holidays on our own, and this is actually the first time we have not invited anyone else to our dinner or celebration. Yep, the first time. It was actually great, no fuss or anything, hahaha we even ate in our jamas.
I saw on my foster sister's facebook Santa was coming on the tracker called Nordsstar.. and as soon as it got on the USA soil, he jumped in the shower and asked to get his har blow dried so he can say his prayers and go to bed. We todl him if Santa sees that you are not sleeping he will pass on by... The funny thing is he only wrote a few things that he wanted for presents.. so during the month we had bought more for him. Christmas morning he was surprised, he says "I must of been have been really good this year!"
My health has been deterranting, and I'm not cool with it. I have fluids in my knees and ankles.. I have my Rhuementaologist do more blood tests and more xrays. I fall into depression only because I want to get better not feeling helpless and useless... I also have to see a podiatrist for my heeel spurs.. my right heel went bad and taking pain meds to cover that, but as usual I get very sleepy. I don't like drugs.